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"Baby Series 2"Written By: Karina
Spoilers: None Disclaimer: I don’t own Gundam Wing or the
Characters from the series but the baby is mine. Pairing: Milliardo + Mrs. Darlian Notes: Challenge 63. Baby Series 2 #189. Takes
place immediately after The Red Road.
Here I Stand “You have forgiven yourself. What was it you forgave yourself for?” “We could play this game all night, Lady Alice and some of us need sleep.” “You will not answer me?” She moved a step closer. The lighting was so poor she could not clearly see his face to determine his expression. The shadows seemed to befriend him, hiding him from scrutiny. “I forgave myself for surviving.” She felt as though a knife had rammed through her vitals. That was not what she had expected. She had not forgiven herself for living while so many had died. It was so long ago but the memories were vivid, alive within her. “You have to forgive yourself for living, you know. I have lived when I should have died so many times… Each death missed is, in itself, a lesson in life. “ “I don’t understand.” “Neither do I.” A sigh escaped him. “To move on, to seek out a fresh start, is to redefine who you are; what you have been doing, where you are going. The theory is if you survive and face yourself honestly, faults and virtues, you will ultimately attain your heart’s desire.” “For you that is?” “I have no idea.” That was hardly what she had expected and she stared at the shadowed man for what had to be an impolite time. The silence seemed not to disturb him. “How can you not know?” “My world fell as a child. My existence since then has been chaos. If I said my heart’s desire was peace for all, that would be a falsehood. Peace means so many different things to different people. I cannot say my desire is to live a normal life. My life has never been normal. When one has lived as I have, nothing is taken for granted. Nothing is dismissed, nothing can be grasped with both hands and ownership claimed. If you must have an answer, I suppose the nearest thing to qualify would be for my son to grow up in peace and to be both happy and content with his life.” “There must be something you desire above all else. Everyone has dreams.” “Do they? I have been hunted since I turned six, for one reason or another. I have killed and been killed, loved and hated. I have sought and attained revenge and learned it can leave you a dried up empty husk longing to be filled with purpose. I have buried those few who loved me and I became the Terror of Earth because someone needed to. Here I stand, still alive. Were you standing in my place, what might you desire with all of your being?” “I… think… peace within myself.” “I have forgiven myself for deeds others never could. Never having walked my path, how could they understand? What is peace but a word like many others. It has many meanings and none of them suit what I feel.” End
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